I was saddened to hear of the passing of Mr Rogers; Fred Rogers.
I remember watching as a wee child, and liking his organized manner.
Shit, now that I think about it, and I'm not trying to mock the dead here, but maybe that's how I first started developing my anal tendencies. I mean, he was so neat...the way he'd change from shoes to sneakers and stuff. Weird.
Still, he seemed like a stand up guy, and he had that magic trolley and stuff, so he was pretty cool. R.I.P.
I'm hoping this is a good weekend.
Fucking A, do I need a good weekend!
There are plans, and at the least I'll be busy, which is good, since an idle mind makes AJ suicidal and shit.
I got so much shit in my head right now.
Among other things, all the changes that I keep referring to at work are finally kicking in, and damn it, I HATE change!
"it's the end of the world as we know it..."
Yesterday was a strange day.
I had a nice time at lunch.
It's funny how deeply simple words and / or actions can move you.
Last night was a little disconcerting because the "trio" got together, but we didn't make beautiful music together. I just couldn't keep up. I haven't practiced on my own at all, so when the guys started playing I just sucked royally.
I guess I should just practice on my own, but I know how lazy I am and I hate to do anything when "I have to".
What I would really like is to hook up with other non-talented individuals who wanna rock out to Maiden and just have fun with it.
I'm serious...I'm even thinking of putting an ad out, or making a special page on the site just for that.
I'll check out most of the Grammy's tonight, but I hope it doesn't get too political.
I don't want us going to war, but I also don't need to hear musicians go on and on about it...
And another reason I really need a woman is that strip clubs are really fucking expensive!
Damn, even with my "restraint", it's not pretty.
Well, I mean, the ladies are pretty, well, mosta them anyway.
Hell, some look like Goddesses too magnificent for this Earth.
And then there are creatures like PEARL who are just the epitome of...DAMN!
But yeah, it's a pricey (and rather sad, really) hobby...
I’m a little worried.
And rather depressed.
(I know that's nothing new...)
I just marked my fifth anniversary at work.
My boss called me in to his office and gave me a nice increase and praised me up and down…
I’m so not worthy of that.
I SO do as little as possible to get the job done…
And I’ve so been putting off that training which will probably lead to the eventual replacement of my immediate supervisor, who can not afford to be let go anytime soon.
But now the boss will be pushing for me to get cracking with the training.
I’m terrified of what happens next…
And I hope I can trust the people I work with... more people than ever know about this site, and frequent it occasionally...
“I saw The Guru around 12:30 PM on the day that America saw it’s second shuttle disaster, the explosion of the “Columbia”.
I had mixed feelings about having a normal day on the same day of a National tragedy, but in the end I decided there was nothing I would accomplish by sitting in front of the TV and watching the in depth coverage.
I certainly mean no disrespect to anyone, and I’m sorry for all involved and that once again America (and Israel) has another tragedy to overcome.”
If you want to read the rest of the review (and it’s a very short one), CLICK HERE.
I wrote this in an e-mail the other day, and it struck me the kind of stuff I usually save for my journal, so I’m including it here word for word:
“By now you prolly don't care to hear anything else from me, but I'll tell
I swear I feel as if I'm living a movie or a novel…
I feel like I'm outside myself and have no control.
I don't wanna feel the way I'm feeling
This anger that started up the other day and won't go away
It's like it's taken over
I'm not trying to be this monster I've been lately, but I can't seem to stop
I feel like I'm sitting here watching myself scream and bark and am nothing but an innocent bystander with no power to change anything
Damn, see, I told you I was weird”
See how much fun I am at work?