I JUST GOTTA VENT
JUNE 2000

Tuesday, 6/27/00
"And it comes to be
That the soothing light
At the end of the tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way" - Metallica
So my mini-vacation was kinda fun and relaxing.
Actually it was a little boring at times because we stayed in Venice, Florida, and damn if that place aint too laid back!
But we checked out Sarasota, which was a lot cooler.
The bad part is that I'm peeling now because of too much sun...on my face!
Joy; Short, fat, bald, ugly, and decomposing!!!
Work still sucks, and now they wanna move me from where I've sat comfortably for almost two and a half years and put me right up front where I can't fuck around at all!
AAAARRRGGHHH!!!!
Oh, I changed my e-mail address for the website.
You can now write me at AJsMisery@aol.com

Thursday, 6/22/00
Well, I'm taking a MINI-vacation.
I'm going to Sarasota for 2 and 1/2 days. It should be a lot of fun!
Work is very awkward in the aftermath of what happened, but soon enough it'll be same old, same old.
Man, I'm gonna have a big old mess to deal with when I get back home Sunday night...

Tuesday, 6/20/00
"Fuck it all
Fuck this world
Fuck everything that you stand for..." - Slipknot
So a long time ago, I wrote a journal entry that probably seemed overly melodramatic, but one that I meant word for word.
It was about something happening at work, and the impression it made on me...like I was part of a movie scene, etc.
Well, the same thing happened again today.
And I have to say, it was twice as bad.
I felt numb...and due to my less than perfect health and physique, I thought just maybe I was gonna drop.
But I didn't.
I had to sit and endure and stay quiet and hold my tongue, and hold back tears...
I know what happened was practically inevitable. But that doesn't make it any easier.

Sunday, 6/18/00
"Here is my confession
The only broken rule
Sometimes I crawl inside of me
Where I can't be the fool..." Ronnie James Dio
Well it's Father's Day.
So far it's been an all right weekend, but it's not really over yet, so who knows?
I saw Shaft, and liked it a lot, so I put up a review.
I also saw Titan A.E.
Here's my review of that...BORING.
Well, let's see what the week has in store for us, shall we?

Friday, 6/16/00
"All I want is to die
Streets of Gold in the Sky
And I wash my hands of you" - Iced Earth
Helplessness is a miserable feeling.
I'm basically sitting here watching Her, who means everything to me even if I mean much less to her, implode.
She's falling apart in front of me, and there is absolutely nothing I can do.
It's killing her.
It's killing me.

Wednesday, 6/14/00
Jesus Fucking Christ. I am SO fucking depressed.
I can't shake it. This can't possibly be good for me. I mean in the long run, this kind of shit eats away at people's sanity and stuff.
And I just aint got that much sanity to fuck around with...

Sunday, 6/11/00
"She shuts the door and lights and lays her body on the bed
Where images and words are running deep
She has too much pride to pull the sheets above her head
So quietly she lays and waits for sleep" - Dream Theater
So I saw Big Momma's House. It's pretty funny, but not good enough for me to bother writing a "review" for it.
I also updated My Writing section with what has to be one of the weirdest things I ever wrote. It's not very good, but I think it's nice and twisted.

Saturday, 6/10/00
"Yeah I guess, I should get help for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care, right?" - The Offspring
So I saw this really fucked up movie on Pal Joey's DVD...Happiness.
DAMN, what a twisted movie. It's from the same guy that did a movie called Welcome To The Dollhouse.
After seeing that movie tonight, suddenly, I feel almost normal!
Oh I also had a little bit of alcohol tonight. A very little bit. I had a Mudslide with dinner. Damn tasty too! So that's twice lately I tried a little alcohol. I'm such a lush!

Friday, 6/9/00
"I was born on the cemetery
Under the sign of the moon
Raised from my grave
By the dead" - Mercyful Fate
So I didn't do a damned thing at work today.
No really. Nothing.
All I did do was stress because I had ordered Her flowers online because it's her birthday, and even if we aint together, we're still very good friends, and of course I still have all kinds of gooey feelings fer her.
What I didn't realize was that she had to leave early for an appointment.
Damn flowers showed up half hour after she bailed.
Fuck!
I just can't win.
Whatever...

Thursday, 6/8/00
"Don't ask me, I don't know" - Ozzy
Well, I'm doing this at work, which means I have to hurry the hell up.
Actually, even though it's been a while since I write, I don't really have much to say.
I looked through some of my old writings, and damn, I suck. I'm not sure how much more stuff is even worth posting, not that what I did post is any good at all.
Work sucks as usual...but maybe even more so, because we lost an account that had generated a lot of business, so now I have more time on my hands. That sucks because the days here at work drag on like a bitch!
I kinda wanna see the MTV Movie Awards tonight. I didn't watch any coverage ahead of time, so I don't know the winners yet. Good.
Why they don't just do the show live is beyond me.
OK, I guess that's it.

Sunday, 6/4/00
Well it's a new month...and one that might prove to be very, um, complicated.
We'll see what happens
In the meantime I have added some content to my site
No really.
There's a little something in the music section, as well as two examples of what my writing is all about. UGH

BACK TO JOURNAL