OH WOE IS ME...
Friday, June 18, 2004
I came in here because it's been a while, and because it seems like there's so much going on, that it feels like SHOULD say something.
The bitch of it is though, I don't feel like it.
There's so much shit going on, mostly at work, where changes are coming fast and furious and I try to hide in the corner and cling desperately to my old school ways...
...There's also the fact that today marks my 18th year out of high school, and damn it, nothing slaps you in the face like the cold hard facts of life: YOU'RE NOTHING!!!
...Then there's all the personal shit...the alienating people because I'm so fucking moody that I blow up at any one and every one, or just avoid them altogether.
I mean, yeah, I'm antisocial anyway, but I've taken the art of it to a whole new level, and it's kinda lonely at the top.
And there's more, much more, but why bother going into it...
Tuesday, June 1, 2004
Just like yesterday, when I closed off May 2004 with nothing much to say, I'm starting off June with basically the same. I really have nothing to say. I'm not looking forward to today, or this week, at all. Work is just that...volatile...right now.
And yet, it distracts me from the nothingness of everything else.
I wish I could get some insight about what the hell is going on...both in the microcosm of my world, and in the enormity of the universe itself.
And yeah, I'm too lazy to go check a dictionary right now...