JULY 2003

Thursday, July 31, 2003

My Dad's birthday was yesterday. He's 70 now.
And that's not a young 70 either. That's an old 70...a, hmmm, looks more like a 75,76 kinda 70.
But let's not dwell on the negative.
We all went out to dinner and had a nice time, so it's all good.

But 70.

Anyway, say goodbye to July...

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

So I finally got to see May, a movie that never made it to Miami, but had a whole lot of internet buzz. It's a very dark comedy at times, but mostly a horror movie. It's not scary at all, but it is disturbing, and damn it, at this point I'm just madly in love with Angela Bettis, the amazing actress in the title role. She fucking rules!
She was great in the TV version of CARRIE, but here she really shines.

Internet buzz has been pretty good to me...
Ginger Snaps and Dog Soldiers were both movies I only heard about through horror and movie geek sites, and now there's May, the best of the bunch.
To be fair, mainstream movie critic Roger Ebert also praised May, but that was long after I heard about it...

Oh, wait, this isn't the MOVIE SECTION of my site.
Um, oh but I hate my life, etc, etc, and so on, and so forth...

Friday, July 25, 2003

There's a certain darkness slowly enveloping the office. Many don't see it, but as discussed previously, I'm in tune with negativity, and I feel it, and it's real.
Basically, the first domino fell a long time ago, and as more and more fall in the unending chain, the darker it will get around here...

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

Yesterday somebody was discussing my "negative demons".
By this I assume she meant "inner-demons", as demons, in general, are negative, right?
But she had a point when she suggested I shouldn't let them rule my life, and that I shouldn't always listen to them.
This brings up some points to ponder...
"Inner-demons" is just an expression...
Or is it we really have actual demons...actual evil spirits, within us?
I mean all the rage and frustration I have...could it really be some supernatural force tormenting me from within? Or is just a diseased mind, ripping away at my sanity, til eventually I'll be nothing more than the dirty, drooling, obscenity screaming man on the street corner?
And if it is actual demons, how do you conquer them?
Please don't tell me that you conquer them with prayer and with help from the Lord above.
You need to believe in order for that possibly to work, and it doesn't, and I don't.
So I guess for now I'll continue to be this little, ostracized ball of hate.

Friday, July 18, 2003

My sister's going through a huge transition right now.
I know how strong and capable she is, so she'll be fine, I know it. Still, I know it's gotta be a nerve wrecking time for her, and I wish her all the best.

Sunday, July 13, 2003

This past week marked my 35th B-Day.
Oh woe is me
Shoot me now
Etc, etc, etc...

But I had to acknowledge those people that took care of me this week, spoiling me with dinners and the like. Thank you all very much. It really means a lot to me.
Sometimes even an antisocial, grumpy old man like me likes to have fun.

One night in particular stands out for me, but that's because my head will forever be in the clouds...

At work, only one person acknowledged my B-Day, but that's a good thing, because those in the know realize I would have killed them if they publicly declared it my b-day.
Still, the fact that only one person acknowledged it, even privately, shows how self- centered people can be. Hypocrisy truly runs rampant in that place...

I cut my head shaving and the stupid thing wouldn't stop bleeding.
You know, fresh blood truly has a beautiful color.

Sunday, July 6, 2003

So I went to Brandon, FL to see the family, and to celebrate my nieceís B-Day a little early and to spend a day at Busch Gardens in Tampa. Unfortunately it wasnít the best weekend weíve ever had, so all Iíll talk about is one element of Busch Gardens.
They have a new attraction called R.L. Stineís The Haunted Lighthouse in 4-D.
Itís very cheeseball, but cute, and kinda fun, and while I wonít mention any other of the cast members I will say I was very pleasantly surprised to see that Daveigh Chase is part of the show.
Sheís the talented young lady that scared the hell outta me in THE RING as well as had the lead voice role in SPIRITED AWAY and DISNEYíS LILO & STITCH. Kinda cool.

I didnít see any new movies this weekend.
I consider Legally Blonde 2 a rental. I had kinda wanted to see Sinbad, and I felt kinda obligated to see Terminator 3, but all I saw theatrically was FINDING NEMO again. I have no regrets about that.
Itís a really great movie, even the second time around.

I guess thatís all I feel like talking about.

Kinda sad, considering it was the long holiday weekend.
But like I said, thatís all I feel like discussing.

I wonít even get into how this week is gonna suck at work.
And believe me, it WILL
But I wonítÖ