I JUST GOTTA VENT - MAY 2000

Monday 5/29/00

"you have an iron will, which helps you succeed in everything"- fortune cookie I got today at a Chinese Buffet.
There you have it, proof that fortune cookies are full of shit!
The weekend's not officially over yet, but fuck it, let's just kill off May already.
Good fucking riddance!
I shouldn't write this here...but God I miss her...

Sunday 5/28/00

Just a quick note...added a new review to the movie section (Shanghai Noon)
That's it for now...

Friday 5/26/00

"...and I'm out here, waiting
I don't understand what you want me to be
It's the dark you're hating
It's not who I am but I know that's all that you see - Savatage
Well it's early into a long weekend for me, so I don't know what to expect...at all.
Hopefully it won't suck TOO bad.
OH, and I updated the movie section...

Wednesday 5/24/00

"You believed in things that I will never know
You were out there drowning but it never showed
'Til inside a rainswept night you just let go
You've thrown it all away
And now we'll never see
The ending to the play
The final line
The grand design
And what was meant to be" - Savatage
I really like those lyrics. I've used them onn this site before.
They pretty much sum it all up rather nicely...

Tuesday 5/23/00

"...men on fire
Still alive
Through the raging blow
Gone insane
From the pain
that they surely know" - Metallica

Well, it's definitely over.
Once again I had a good thing, but couldn't hold on.
But it takes two devoted souls to keep a relationship together.
Try as I might, I couldn't do it alone...nor could I inspire her enough to try.
For now let's just say it's MY loss...

Sunday 5/21/00 ADDENDUM

"I may be dumb, but I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem" - The Offspring

Well, I guess it's over for real. Actually, it's been basically over so many times, I've lost count. But this time it doesn't seem like I'll be able to work anything out.
I don't hate her. (I kinda wish I could though)Hell I don't even blame her.
Actually, if I had any kind of balls or back bone at all I would left and not looked back long ago, because like I said before, when it was good it was amazing, but when it was bad, Fucking A, that shit was ugly!
Anyway, I'll probably never really reveal some of the "ugly" stuff. It's THAT bad.
Well, I dunno if I'll bring it up again, but for now I gotta go. It's late and I still gotta go to work tomorrow.P>

Sunday 5/21/00

"We are but flesh and flesh is the weakness
We are born of blood sinew and bone
We're all just spinning in this useless hole and time
On our way into the black unknown" - Nevermore
Ah, happy, inspirational lyrics for us all to live by.
So yesterday I saw Road Trip, and hey it was funny! I really needed to just forget and laugh, and so it definitely served it's purpose.
It's not a great movie...it tries to be another American Pie, but it's not nearly as good. For brainless entertainment though, it works just fine.
I also hung out with Pal Joey, yeah him, and it was kinda fun. Met some interesting people, etc. Even learned some Japanese History / Legend. Cool.

Friday 5/19/00

"Broken is the promise, betrayal
The healing hand held back by the deepened nail" - Metallica
So yeah, everything sucks...and to add insult to injury, Dinosaur was a bit of a disappointment too.
I mean, it was visually amazing most of the time. But I had some problems with the "humanification" of the animals, and the way they basically exchanged real life dinosaurs for weird looking fantasy ones.
Yeah, I know, I bitch too much.
Thursday 5/18/00

"By the pricking of my thumbs
Something wicked this way comes" - from Macbeth, by Shakespeare
I know I've used that quote before, but it feels so appropriate...and you know, if the shoe fits, etc.

Wednesday 5/17/00

"I am he, the bornless one
The fallen angel watching you" - Iron Maiden

I don't know how they did it, but tomorrow is my parent's 42nd Wedding Anniversary!
If you know my parents at all, you know that is FUCKING amazing!
CONGRATULATIONS!

So work is fucking killing me lately. I can no longer put it off...I MUST look for an alternate source of revenue.
In other words, I NEED A NEW JOB...NOW!
Oh, by the way, the weekend turned out pretty good after all.
At least I think so, in me own 'umble opinion...
But, like a song says...still I'm sad.
I wanna see Dinoasaur this weekend, although I'm not really sure why.
Weird huh?

Saturday 5/13/00

"What kind of creature do we have here
It looks like love, but it smells like fear" - Monster Magnet

It's only been a few hours since my last oh-so-informative entry, so I don't really have anything to say.
It's very early into the weekend, and I think that it may be an important weekend...albeit a depressing one.

Friday 5/12/00

SHE MOURNS A LENGTHENING SHADOW

Hasten to the bridal bed
Underneath the grave tis spread
In darkness may our love be bid
Oblivion be our coverlid
We may rest, and none forbid
- Percy Bysshe Shelley, as quoted by Cradle of Filth

Yes I'm feeling rather morbid.
So I'll leave it there...

Wednesday 5/10/00

"They say the empty can rattles the most..." - Metallica
So I saw The Prince Of Egypt again yesterday. What an amazing movie. It really bothers me that it didn't do well at the box office, because had it been a huge hit studios would want to produce sophisticated, adult oriented animation. But instead we get The Road To El Dorado, which was funny, but not nearly as deep as Prince. Bummer.
Anyway, during the incredible splitting of the sea scene, my friend turns to me and says that some people think what really happened was a tsunami.
I didn't say a word, but I thought to myself...huh? It's a movie...it's not real.
Then I realized it's Biblical. So once again I became this Doubting Thomas. How could any of those miracles ever really happened in real life?
I dunno. I just can't see it happening.

Sunday 5/7/00

"Now his wings turn to ashes
To ashes his grave" - Iron Maiden

Man I really don't wanna go into work tomorrow. See, I had the day off on Friday, which basically means I have a WHOLE LOTTA work waiting for me. PLUS I know I'll have at least one "crisis" waiting for me...on Friday I was in the area and since I had to use the phone, I decided to stop at work. Well suffice it to say I walked right into a crisis, and I just know it wasn't resolved yet.
Joy.
I didn't really get into Gladiator, the movie, in my last entry like I meant to. It's a really cool movie, and I recommend it to anybody who likes violent movies...and movies that use cool camera shots and special effects.
I really don't have anything else to say right now.
Bye

Friday 5/5/00

Welcome to May. Joy.
BLOOD, SWEAT & TEARS

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